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medic1852
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Guilt.........
« on: Feb 28th, 2006, 2:41pm » |
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Well folks I will let you all in on a little secret..I had not had a cycle since November of 2004. I had been pain free, no shadows nothing..I felt guilty for hanging out here knowing the pain that the "chronics" felt and knowing there was nothing I could do or tell them to make it better.
I was glad when we went without internet for awhile so I would not have to come and explain why I had not been complaining of a hit..
Well for the past two weeks I had been having shadows, and told my little Amy~Do, she said she wondered when it was going to start again.
Well I work nights now and was just awoken, by my dear Friend and yours with a little nudge and reminder that he still knew where I lived. He was gentle with me today and let me be woke easy with not even a KIP 1.
So it looks like I have not "outgrown" these miserable little headaches. They are back and now with this little reminder I was given I can look forward to the next six to eight weeks. 
Thank you all for being friends and here for each other when I was not strong for you. 
Rodger
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #1 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 2:45pm » |
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Never feel guilty!
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #2 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 3:01pm » |
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Dont feel guilty, being here and helping others including me is great. 
I get bummed out when folks leave while out of cycle. I can use there wisdom, insite and humor to make my days a little more bearable. I am glad you stuck around and thank everyone who does. I can understand when not hurtn not wanting the reminder and cant say I wouldnt do the same but supporters and those not in pain that hang in here everyday is a godsend to say the least.
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #3 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 3:14pm » |
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Well Roger,
I hate to say this, because it was pain that brought you, but, Welcome Back.
There are lot of new people, myself included since you left, but your family is still here.
Hopin for more pf time for you!
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #4 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 3:14pm » |
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Never feel guilt when you're not hurting - enjoy the painfree times. Just stick around and support those who aren't as lucky. That's what we're all about.
BTW -- if you REALLY get on a guilt trip -- just yell at me -- I'll trade heads with you.... 
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #5 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 3:23pm » |
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rodger, i left for the exact opposite reason and i was feeling guilty about it.
i was trying everything that came around the bend and nothing was helping, and i just felt like i was becoming a big bummer to the rest.
since i have come back nothing is still working the fuckers are as bad (worse) than ever, but you have already become a friend and in that way have helped me!
i am determined to stick around this time and plug a little positive vibe in whenever i can . i'm proud to be getting to know you and hope that they leave you soon..
.............pfdans........tim
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #6 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 4:23pm » |
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Well Rodger, we all feel like ignoring this condition and everything that goes with it when out of cycle. The fortunate/unfortunate thing is just, that we cannot out run the beast. He catches up with us sooner or later and it is hell to go through this alone.
It is better to be home, where everyone understands, to prepare for the battle.
We are weak but we are strong... we are just like that and it is OK.
You hang in there because we are here.
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #7 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 4:34pm » |
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Rodger, I've been PF since July, yet I come here at least 3 or 4 times a week. During my PF time, I discovered clustermasx, which is neatly tucked away in my closet waiting for the beast to come a-knockin. Also during my PF time, Mr. Happy hooked me up with a great hi-flow regulator (thanks again, RJ!)
So, during my PF time not only I have been able to offer help, advice and encouragement to those in need, but I've gotten something out of this place too while PF.
I've had a couple of short-lived shadows the last couple of days, and this time I'm more prepared than ever, because I DID stick around during PF time.
Don't feel guilty. Your pain will return, it always does, and we all know it. Enjoy your PF time, nobody here envies it.
Be well.
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #8 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 5:19pm » |
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After 30 years of yearly hits, I have been pain free since July, 2000. Going on 6 years. But after meeting the family in Atlanta, I could not leave and have been here every day since. It makes a difference when you can put faces on the peeps here. You truly feel connected for life. And thats why I stay. 
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #9 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 5:23pm » |
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on Feb 28th, 2006, 5:19pm, Jimi wrote:| After 30 years of yearly hits, I have been pain free since July, 2000. Going on 6 years. But after meeting the family in Atlanta, I could not leave and have been here every day since. It makes a difference when you can put faces on the peeps here. You truly feel connected for life. And thats why I stay. |
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #10 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 5:31pm » |
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Thank you all for your support! I really appreciate it. I have been a CH since I was 16. So when I was in remission I thought thank god finally.
But since I have been tracked down and I enjoy the talk here and there are no kids on the sight acting like idiots I will be here for those who need my twisted sense of humor and to add what little input I can on the serious stuff.
Again thanks to all of you...especially the chronics..
Rodger
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #11 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 5:53pm » |
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Don't feel guilty for being PF. Sorry to read that there is a hint of possibility that he's coming back.
Ship the fuckstick my way. I've been PF for 18 hours with full knowledge due to the drastic weather change he coming back again tonight. The sick bastard misses me and loves looking at the world through my tired blood shot watery eye.
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« Reply #12 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 6:14pm » |
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... once again lurking at your door. IMO, there is no reason to feel guilty over being pf. Enjoy the pf times and provide support here where and how you can.
I haven't come across any site guidelines or directives that require you to be in pain to participate.
Wishing you an easy round this time and PFDAN.
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #13 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 6:20pm » |
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I guess I should feel really guilty but mine petered out before this place existed. I do feel bad that my technique hasn't had more success here. It did in the guest book though.
600 more PF years Rodger
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #14 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 6:54pm » |
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So that's the good news
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What's the bad
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Stop whining...
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #15 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 7:39pm » |
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Were all in the same boat. Row dammit! oops dropped an oar.
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #16 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 7:57pm » |
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Rodger..
Read this thread.. you feel guilty coz you havent been here...... Tanner feels bad that when he was at his worst, he wasnt helping.and what has it gotten either of you?? Nothing.nada, zip....cept for the fact that this lil berg called Clusterville loves ya any ole whichway!
Rodger, I am so sorry the beast found your address.... Tanner, I'm sorry you have been fighting so hard,
Echo.aww,damn, ya know what I think!
All the rest of ya..if you're in pain, take a little helping of strength, and if you're fine for now..ROW, damn you!!!
No room for guilt, you guys... you all pay your dues.....and the BEAST is the ONLY one who should feel guilty......
Here or not, you are thought of and cared about.....
shutting up now.......
Be PF,
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #17 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 8:01pm » |
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Guilt? Hell no!
Hope it is just a passing warning from the beast, I get that sometimes. Enjoy life. The beast may be back, he may not. Congratulations on the PF time. I think I have one more year free , but I only get in trouble when I think
Stick around, enjoy the insanity, thats the fun part  And be here for the ones that need it. Thats family. Damn I love this family.
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Re: Guilt.........
« Reply #18 on: Feb 28th, 2006, 9:28pm » |
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We are here for you even if you are PF... Just don't feel guilty... celebrate! Enjoy for those of us who are not PF... 
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I'm here in and out of cycle, whether people like it or not.
I think it's just cuz I like to hear myself talk.
Roger, every episodic who discovers ch.com goes through a guilty phase, just like you are. Eventually you'll wisen up that it's wrong to feel guilty about being PF. But it also shows that you have compassion for others.
The light will always be on for ya.
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