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kimmeesue
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Poor, pitiful me...
« on: Apr 24th, 2005, 7:37pm » |
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Having a rough day and mad at the world. Found out my favorite aunt (like a 2nd mom) has 3-6 weeks to live (liver cancer). Knew she had the cancer, didn't think it had progressed so far and had been negotiating with God. Funny how He answers our prayers just not in the way we want. Then my husband almost electrocuted himself which scared the crap out of me. Then to top it all off I find out my almost 96year old grandmother with alzheimers has lost 17 pounds since Feb. because she can't see well enough to feed herself and the f&*%ing nursing home won't feed her and the only time they get on the ball is when I go there (8 hour drive) and raise hell and I have been twice since Christmas and she keeps asking for me and I know I am the only one she can count on even though she has two daughters in the same town and I arranged for Haspice care and they are doing "the best they can". And I have had three Kip 7-8 today and nothing helps and the crying just makes it worse and AAAGGGHHHH!!!!
Ok. Now I feel much better.
Thanks for being there. Here?
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #1 on: Apr 24th, 2005, 7:46pm » |
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You know there is always someone at home here...The light is always on!
Venting and purging is good for healing....wish it helped with our barking heads the way it does our souls... 
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #2 on: Apr 24th, 2005, 8:07pm » |
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I guess "they're" right .... when it rains it pours.
Hang in there, sweetie. Like Redd said, the light is always on. We're here for you.
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #3 on: Apr 24th, 2005, 9:11pm » |
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Sorry time is so ruff for you right now.
Vent on we are here for you.
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #4 on: Apr 24th, 2005, 9:13pm » |
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Aw, sorry kim.  
Hang in there. Come and vent whenever you need to.
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #5 on: Apr 24th, 2005, 10:15pm » |
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Aww Kim I'm so sorry to hear all this! Hang in there, vent whenever needed!!! HUGE hugs and vibes.
If ya ever need to or want to talk on messenger I use yahoo and msn mostly (tara_ann_77@yahoo.com)
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #7 on: Apr 24th, 2005, 11:15pm » |
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Hang tough Kimmeesue.......... thinking about you and praying for some comfort for you.....love ree
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #8 on: Apr 25th, 2005, 2:06pm » |
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I'm so sorry to hear about your aunt, Kimmeesue.
And I'm sorry for the hard time ch is giving you. But you're right, having a bad attack makes it easier to cry.
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #9 on: Apr 25th, 2005, 2:36pm » |
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Thanks so much everybody. You know, the head is the least of it, when you wake to it, and it screeches away throughout the day it's kind of like a drippy faucet or a noisy pipe, you just go on, but the emotional stuff is what gets to me. And there are super disfunctional family issues peripherally with both my aunt (dad's side) and grandmother (mom's side) and both are in the same town which should make it easier but my parents are divorced and my mom is bitter (they have only been divorced for 46 years, geesh) and I am an only child caught in the middle and my mom hates the aunt who is dying. IS it any wonder I want to crawl in a hole??? I think the only one with any sense is my grandmother with alzheimers and I am beginning to hope it's hereditary and that I get it soon. 
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #10 on: Apr 25th, 2005, 3:31pm » |
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on Apr 24th, 2005, 8:07pm, Kris_in_SJ wrote:I guess "they're" right .... when it rains it pours.
Hang in there, sweetie. Like Redd said, the light is always on. We're here for you.
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Yup...just like Redd and Kris say....vent away, we'll listen. Hang in there Kim...hugs, nani
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #11 on: Apr 29th, 2005, 2:09pm » |
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Just a follow-up. My aunt died yesterday. Much sooner than the three to six weeks which I guess is a blessing. No sufferring, just lapsed into a coma. I'm trying to remember to celebrate her life and not feel so gloomy. That's how she would have wanted it . Fortunately the demon is giving me a break, just lurking but not making himself known. This aunt lost an eye to melanoma about 16 months ago. Maybe I should rethink those times when I want to pluck this sucker out of my head. Of course they replace hers with a beautifully custom hand painted one that didn't hurt a bit. Hmmm.COuld they do that with my brain? Lots of pretty colors?
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #12 on: Apr 30th, 2005, 12:06pm » |
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Sorry for your loss Kim !
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #13 on: Apr 30th, 2005, 1:50pm » |
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Sorry for your loss.You are in my thoughts and prayers.....Kim
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #14 on: Apr 30th, 2005, 3:41pm » |
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I will be praying for you and your family. Remeber to take care of yourself also.
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Re: Poor, pitiful me...
« Reply #15 on: May 3rd, 2005, 5:44pm » |
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