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UPDATE:Venting open if you dare.......
« on: Oct 10th, 2005, 5:53pm » |
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 I just want to shut it off if even for just awhile. I don't like myself anymore. I am irritable(Bit off hubbies head Sat. night), my memory is caput ( forgot some reciets a few months ago and now hubby is pissed at me and threatening to taking me off the checking account. Maybe I deserve it who knows.) and depressed from all this pain. Its not so much the hits just the gal darn sever shadows that are never ending. I find myself thinking if only I would get hit then maybe just maybe these shadows would end but then day 2&3&4.... continue to be the same. I can't live like this. He is winning and ruining my life.(beast)
Hope you all are well....Kim
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Re: Venting open if you dare.......
« Reply #1 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 6:02pm » |
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on Oct 10th, 2005, 5:53pm, Kim Y. wrote:| forgot some reciets a few months ago and now hubby is pissed at me and threatening to taking me off the checking account. |
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Uncaring bastard!!!
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Re: Venting open if you dare.......
« Reply #2 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 6:06pm » |
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« Reply #3 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 6:06pm » |
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on Oct 10th, 2005, 6:02pm, Jonny wrote:
I second that ... That BASTARD !!
c'mon girl. Pull yourself together. You're going to make it! Don't ever let the beast win !
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« Reply #4 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 6:13pm » |
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All I can say to you, sweetie, is hang in there. Has hubbie visited this site? Maybe he should, he might get an education.
Sending you hugs 
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Re: Venting open if you dare.......
« Reply #5 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 7:52pm » |
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Rant away and I'll go with "uncaring bastard."
Works for me anyway. 
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« Reply #6 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 8:04pm » |
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on Oct 10th, 2005, 7:52pm, Charlie wrote:Rant away and I'll go with "uncaring bastard."
Works for me anyway.
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Ya what he said.....
I don't have that smilie 
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« Reply #7 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 8:54pm » |
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Kim hun....
Uncaring bastard is a gimme....
Sometimes I think it's better to be single...(maybe I do have the best of all situations)
My heart goes out to you sis, just don't let the beast win!!!!!!
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« Reply #8 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 8:57pm » |
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Kim..
Dont let him..or the beast win...they are both bastards and you can fight this....1 hour at a time..never give up..ever..
huggs & much love
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« Reply #9 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 9:01pm » |
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Honey the beast is not winning, you are a strong woman & you can over come this, it will pass, just remember you are stronger then the beast & your fight is not alone!! we are here to help you kick A$$ !! so don't you dare give in, get pissed & Kick A$$!!
Lots of Vibes, Love & Prayers to you & your!!
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Re: Venting open if you dare.......
« Reply #10 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 9:28pm » |
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Keep your chin up Kim.
Maybe i am just too damn naive, but i think it would be nice for the hubby to take you off the account. That way you would have no banking responsibilities and cant be blamed for sending a bill late or forgetting to balance the checkbook. Maybe your hubby's intent was that.....maybe he meant " kim, I think I'll just take care of the banking for a while cause you seem to be having a rough time right now"
Is that possible, or is that just wishful thinking?
If he said that just to be a PITA, then you should be sure to interrupt every single tip-off, kick-off and first pitch to have him go to the ATM to go get you cash.......you would do it yourself, but you arent on the account anymore.
Sorry hunny!!
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I hope you get some relief soon. Try to slow down the rat race for a little bit, maybe having hubby do all banking is a good idea for now. Its 1 less thing you gotta worry about. I normally take care of that, but when i am in cycle, my wife knows she'd better do it.
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« Reply #11 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 10:01pm » |
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Kim,
Just keep on, keeping on.
Take him up on the offer, he pays the bills, you save what you earn, sounds good to me.
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« Reply #12 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 10:25pm » |
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Sorry Kim...
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« Reply #13 on: Oct 10th, 2005, 10:34pm » |
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Kim, forgive me, but I'm gonna have to give you some tough love, OK?
Girl, you absolutely must get an attitude adjustment! You do not have to let it win, and you know it. Somewhere, way down deep, you have all the strength you need to keep fighting. Turn your despair into anger, honey. Fuck the beast! Fight it with EVERYTHING you've got. Fuck the checking account! Turn it all over to the hubby and tell him you've got bigger battles to deal with.
Giving in to it will only make your life a whole helluva lot worse. I know...because I've been there.
Get tough girl, you're a clusterhead, and we're the toughest, meanest, baddest, mofos around. According to Jonny, even us girls have stainless steel yambags.  I think he's right.
Onward and upward, Kim!
PF wishes and hugs, nani
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« Reply #14 on: Oct 11th, 2005, 2:43am » |
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Hang in there Kim!
You're a Cluster Sister and you can do it!
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« Reply #15 on: Oct 11th, 2005, 7:50am » |
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Rant , scream, throw stuff, cuss, fuss, and be mad. But dammit, don't give up sweetie. Can't be mad w/out strength. So be pissed as hell at the beast, show him you're stronger and let him know he AIN'T GONNA BEACHA!
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Re: Venting open if you dare.......
« Reply #16 on: Oct 11th, 2005, 8:02am » |
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on Oct 10th, 2005, 8:04pm, Gena wrote:
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Then just steal Charlie's... That's what I would do....
Kim, I couldn't give you any more info then what's already been giving...only to say, keep plugging away and know that we are always here to listen.
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« Reply #17 on: Oct 11th, 2005, 8:12am » |
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HI Kim!
So sorry you're hurting luv.
Please give us an update as to your meds? What meds do your doctors have you on, are you on 02? Have you considered the alternative treatment?
I'm sorry if you'll have to be redundant for me, but I was just curious as to how you're preventing and aborting your clusters.
As my Dad tells me "you must gird up your loins" (not sure what that means exactly), get a plan of action, and kick ass. He sure has a way with words huh? 
Love ya girl,
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« Reply #18 on: Oct 11th, 2005, 8:36am » |
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on Oct 10th, 2005, 10:34pm, nani wrote:Kim, forgive me, but I'm gonna have to give you some tough love, OK?
Girl, you absolutely must get an attitude adjustment! You do not have to let it win, and you know it. Somewhere, way down deep, you have all the strength you need to keep fighting. Turn your despair into anger, honey. Fuck the beast! Fight it with EVERYTHING you've got. Fuck the checking account! Turn it all over to the hubby and tell him you've got bigger battles to deal with.
Giving in to it will only make your life a whole helluva lot worse. I know...because I've been there.
Get tough girl, you're a clusterhead, and we're the toughest, meanest, baddest, mofos around. According to Jonny, even us girls have stainless steel yambags. I think he's right.
Onward and upward, Kim!
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Well spoken, Nani.
Kim, I turned over the financial stuff to my wife a long time ago. I get pocket-money, and that's good enough for me. We talk to each other about major financial decisions, and every once in awhile, I ask what our bank balances are, but beyond that, I couldn't give a shit about it. Like Nani said: You've got bigger things to deal with. Choose to feel relieved that this is one more burden off of your shoulders, rather than feeling chastized or shamed.
Above and beyond all other things: Fight!! FIGHT!! FIGHT!! Do NOT let the beast or anyone else ever undermine your self-worth or your strength.
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Re: UPDATE:Venting open if you dare.......
« Reply #19 on: Oct 11th, 2005, 9:21am » |
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Hey everyone
Few made it through that day. Sorry that I unloaded on you. It just seemed like one thing after another. In class a test. Then car died and had to be towed to a dealership so they could say the battery cable were caroded and then one removed it started right up. The come home and hubby (who usually handles all the banking stuff except the debit card I own.) He is up set and then pushed it one step further and I just couldn't take it. Oh yah to top it all off I had been having really bad shadows all day. Anyway some good did come of the car ordeal did get the entire chapter read for class and was able to kick back at home.
Hubby and I went out to dinner and talked about a lot of stuff. No not the memory he doesn't understand how that can be. He is a good man can't convince hime to come to this sight though doesn't need it he says.
Tough love is always good and thanks Nani and others who dished it out. I was hurting yesturday and was just needing to talk and don't have anybody but you all I had last night.
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on Oct 11th, 2005, 8:12am, Langa wrote:
As my Dad tells me "you must gird up your loins" (not sure what that means exactly), get a plan of action, and kick ass. |
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To gird your loins during the Roman Era meant to draw-up and tie your lower garment between your legs as to increase your mobility and agility. This prevented the loose ends of the tunic from becoming snagged on something or entangled with your feet which would cause you to stumble or fall down when moving about quickly. |
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« Reply #21 on: Oct 11th, 2005, 4:38pm » |
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