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Been a long week...
« on: Sep 15th, 2005, 8:43pm » |
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So much has heppened this week, yet so very little. I've heard that when the end is near, a loved one will gain a bit of strength for a few days. Hope upon hope that this is what is happening with Mom right now. She speaks of those who have passed ahead of her. She knew all of our names today, and as I got hit today she asked me if I had taken my meds.
She had been placed in her wheel chair rather than bed rest, and her voice when she spoke was faint, but she made more sence today than in the past 5 years. She is off all her previous medication for the BP, the blood thinners, the anti-dilusions, the anti-seisures for a week now. Cold turkey. After a couple hours in thre she was tired and it was time for her to lay down again.
I want to believe for her sake that peace will come on swift wings now, as her lungs are getting conjested again and the bag from the cathiter is showing alot of setiment and cloudyness from the kidneys not filtering and doing their job. We've done alot of second guessing for selfish reasons. I'm weary...I ran a red light today my mind seems to be shutting down. The nurses told me to take tomorrow off, I look as if I needed the break. They will call periodically with any news. I probably do need to rest too.
Sorry to burdon you all with this. I need an outlet and this family has been a heartfelt support. My Brother Terry and I thank you all.
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #1 on: Sep 15th, 2005, 8:51pm » |
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Praying for peace for your Mom and strength for your family.Take care Pegg you know she wouldn't want you getting hurt because your mind wondered.Please be careful OK.Wish I could do something to help your family through this
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #2 on: Sep 15th, 2005, 8:56pm » |
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #3 on: Sep 15th, 2005, 9:31pm » |
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sorry Redd.... Ive been in your seat and my heart is broken for you. Gods love and comforting angels for your Mother.... be well love ree
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #4 on: Sep 15th, 2005, 9:34pm » |
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I'm sorry, Pegg.
I'm sending prayers and hugs to you all.
love, nani
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #5 on: Sep 15th, 2005, 9:39pm » |
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Sending well wishes and strength vibes.
Your mom wanted this, and you are a terrific person for trying to grant her this wish.
Rest up.
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Don't ever be sorry for posting...
I'm glad you guys still have the chance to talk with her while she's making sense, some of us never had the chance to say goodbye. I'm sure it will help all of you for closure.
May you find some peace,
Rex
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Pegg, I've been where you are, only it was cancer. I just want to say, that I feel your exhaustion, your being ready to let go, and feeling like you can't relax or tend to your own feelings until Mom is "ok". Whether that ok is in passing or not, it's almost like you're in limbo, and time stops until something happens. Those days and hours can be very very long.
Anyway, big HUGS for you and I'm here if you need to talk.
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #8 on: Sep 15th, 2005, 10:21pm » |
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Such a sad process to have to witness.......seems the loss is sometimes more painful and long lasting for the ones that survive. Stay strong...........live for the loved Pam
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #9 on: Sep 15th, 2005, 10:45pm » |
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on Sep 15th, 2005, 10:15pm, Melissa wrote:Pegg, I've been where you are, only it was cancer. I just want to say, that I feel your exhaustion, your being ready to let go, and feeling like you can't relax or tend to your own feelings until Mom is "ok". Whether that ok is in passing or not, it's almost like you're in limbo, and time stops until something happens. Those days and hours can be very very long.
Anyway, big HUGS for you and I'm here if you need to talk.
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There you again sweetie, trying to give when what you need now is to recieve. I Luv you for the offer, but now is a time you need to consentrate on you sweetness, ok? Take time for you and give your soul the break... a child is a hard thing to lose, Parents are supposed to pass. I'll make it.....you will too...
Mel....I was born with wide shoulders for a reason. We never get more that we can bare.........I would say you have the same shoulders my dear.....with the love and support of our friends there is nothing we can't overcome.
You have my number Sis....use it.
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #10 on: Sep 15th, 2005, 11:00pm » |
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The Last Battle
If it should be that I grow frail & weak,
& pain should keep me from my sleep,
Then will you do what must be done?
For this is the Last Battle that can't be won,
You will be sad I understand,
But don't let grief stand in your way,
For on this day, more then the rest,
Your LOVE & Friendship must stand the test.
We have had so many Happy Years,
You won't want me to suffer so,
When the time comes, Please let me go.
Take me to where my needs they'll tend,
Only, stay with me until the end.
And hold me firm & speck to me,
Until my eyes no longer see.
I know in time you will agree,
It is a kindness you do for me.
From pain & suffering I have been saved,
Don't grieve that it must be you,
Who has to decide this thing you do.
We've been so close, We two, These years,
Don't let your heart hold any tears.
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Lots of Love Jolene & Charlie
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #11 on: Sep 15th, 2005, 11:24pm » |
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You and your family are in my thoughts, Pegg
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #12 on: Sep 15th, 2005, 11:27pm » |
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Great poem Jolene. It says it all....Redd, I am praying for strength for you. Remember....that joys are multiplied and sorrows divided when you share them with friends.
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #13 on: Sep 16th, 2005, 2:44am » |
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Peg you are right about your broad shoulders. You have endured much already and came through it. You will again of that I have no doubt but you must not forget that you have to take care of Peg as well.
This Peg lady is a great, loving and caring person and for her to stay that way she needs to recharge, she needs rest and she needs love.
Sending you vibes and love.
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #14 on: Sep 16th, 2005, 7:01am » |
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« Reply #15 on: Sep 16th, 2005, 7:06am » |
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #16 on: Sep 16th, 2005, 7:07am » |
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Peg, big hugs headed your way sister...
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #17 on: Sep 16th, 2005, 8:01am » |
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Pegg, your Mom is probably making a little more sense because she is off of all of her meds. Try to enjoy these few moments with her, and remember, she may be enjoying them with you as well. Hold on dear, and take care of yourself.
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #18 on: Sep 16th, 2005, 8:09am » |
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Pegg,
I was just praying for you...
I wish you & your whole family strength right now.
You've been on my thoughts on last few days a lot. I hope that in the middle of this all, you can recall to take care of yourself as well, okay?
Don't feel bad about letting us know how you feel! Who else you can be totally honest about things? We're here for you, in ch and in life, in every way we can.
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #19 on: Sep 16th, 2005, 8:42am » |
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Pegg hon, you're doing all you can.
We're here when you need us.
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Re: Been a long week...
« Reply #20 on: Sep 16th, 2005, 2:01pm » |
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I'm with Helen. We're here and I hope you find time to rant away. You're doing good. Kid.
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