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At the End of My Rope
« on: Aug 8th, 2005, 6:29pm » |
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I am praying to God. I have not felt well all summer. I never know what kind of day I am gonna get. Everytime the pressure changes which is every minute my head bothers me. And it is very strange. Not big on pain not the ice pick but exteme congestion with tearing and not feeling right. I did have pain in my eyes and sinus yesterday a very bad day with nausea. It comes and goes and it is not a sinus infection. My neuro is out of town so I went to ER today for oxygen and IV meds including steroids for the congestion. I am feeling "better" now not so off but I feel the heaviness behind my eyes and a slight shadow. WHAT THE HELL IS THIS. Can you have cluster cycles wo the searing pain but with the congestion, tearing and feeling just plain off and shitty. I have been crying all day. I wish God would just take me back quietly into his kingdom. I am basically alone, my kids are grown and into their lives and if I continue like this I will surely not be able to support myself. I am not supposed to be in cycle this time .
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #1 on: Aug 8th, 2005, 6:38pm » |
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Hang in there. We ALL have days like you just described. I'm having one today..weather changing, barometric pressure up and down, feeling like total crap, one side of my nose running, one eye tearing, only a couple of full blown hits today, but then again there is always tonight to look forward to 
I guess my point is, you are not alone. You DO have a family here...and we do care. A Lot. A whole lot.
And we love you. Don't EVER forget that.
Times are tough, but clusterheads are tougher.
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #2 on: Aug 8th, 2005, 6:57pm » |
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We have plenty of extra rope if you run out, Babe!
Always!
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It is up to YOU to educate yourself and then help your doctor plan your treatment. If you just sit down in front of your doctor and say "make me better" you are setting yourself up for a great deal of pain.
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Oh hon, I am so very sorry.  The very nature of what we suffer from is unpredictable. It manifests itself when it wants to, and we are caught off guard. I want to honestly tell you, that even though you feel like you want to die right now, that things WILL get better! If you can get through the moment, you can get through the cycle. And remember, if he brings you to it, he'll bring you through it! I truely believe in this. PM me if you ever need to talk or vent.
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #4 on: Aug 8th, 2005, 7:17pm » |
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Hang in there girl. We got your back. And even though the kids have flown the coop, they are still there for you too.
Call one of us, if you need to talk in person. Anyone of us would be happy to be a shoulder to cry on.
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #5 on: Aug 8th, 2005, 7:22pm » |
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on Aug 8th, 2005, 6:29pm, rickyshot wrote:
No you're not. You've got us.
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YOU'RE NOT ALONE !! (sorry I had to yell)
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #7 on: Aug 8th, 2005, 7:42pm » |
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #8 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 8:56am » |
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Got a hit in the middle of the nite and it woke me up. Took Maxalt and put an ice pack to my head and it subsided in an hour. I feel so so this am. Mainly nauseaus and diaherrea. Head seems more balanced . Waiting out the rest of the day. Did not go to work.
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #9 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 9:00am » |
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Hang in there ricky. not to sound like your granny, but get a little food in your tummy and try to make a day of it. we know how things feel after a bad night but you'll feel better if you drag yourself into the day and keep yourself intact. shake it off as best you can.
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #10 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 9:03am » |
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Ricky, hang in there... You have my phone number, so gimme a call this evening, if you need some support. As much as you are able, get some rest and pamper yourself. "This too shall pass."
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #11 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 9:06am » |
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Hang in there. We ALL have days like you just described 
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #12 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 9:08am » |
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Ricky, doesn't matter when or where, we are all out here for each other so you will never be alone ever again.
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #13 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 9:38am » |
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #14 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 9:44am » |
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I heard this saying one time, it said when you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot at the end and hang on.
Wishing you a better days ahead!
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #15 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 9:55am » |
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Hang in there "shawt" one. You'll make it through this one just fine. Remember you have a family here who understands what you are going through and we're here for you.
Hugs for ya.
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #16 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 10:15am » |
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I'm so sorry you're having a hard time Ricky...
You are definitely not alone and we're here for you...
Hang in there lady...be strong....
Prayers and hugs on the way...
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #17 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 10:17am » |
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We are all here..you are not alone....not ever...
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #18 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 11:52am » |
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We are all stronger than it!!!!!!!!!
Tons of love and hugs.
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #19 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 11:57am » |
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I'm so sorry...
Hang on in there... This too shall pass... I pray that it will happen soon.
Remember, you're never alone. You've got us.
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #20 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 3:46pm » |
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It sucks being there, but hang on tight!!! 
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #21 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 5:13pm » |
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Hang on girl.. it will pass... all my prayers and vibes headed your way..
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #22 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 5:32pm » |
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It saddens me to hear you are hurting so much lately. It does get better just can't promise you when still trying to figure that out myself.
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #23 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 5:46pm » |
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Ricky........hang on, honey! You dont want to give the beast any encouragement. You are a clusterhead...one of the strongest people in the world, and though you are in pain, you WILL get through this!
You have an army of friends around you to help, just reach out..........and then, think of those grown kids who do love you soo much.after all, you raised them!
Here........  borrow my smile till yours returns, and keep talking here, would you please?
This, too, shall pass, Ricky!
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Re: At the End of My Rope
« Reply #24 on: Aug 9th, 2005, 7:40pm » |
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You're stronger than that and you know it. Lean on folks here when you need to, we really do understand what this is like. Please don't ever give up, we all need you here too.
God Bless,
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