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Biggest fear
« on: Apr 28th, 2005, 3:25am » |
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What are you afraid of?
Ask anyone who has known me since childhood and they will tell you that I'm afraid of lots of things.
I was afraid of sharks since I saw Jaws as a kid... Then I read more about them and these days I hope that we're able to protect them. But still, you won't catch me swimming anywhere near them...
As a kid I was afraid of snakes, but ever since facing the only poisonous one here in Finland face to face, I'm not afraid of them anymore. I just dislike them.
But there are two things I AM afraid of. Dark and death. And after wondering about it for a long time, I've figured out why. I'm afraid of them because they both present unknown. I'm bit of a control freak - I want to know what's going to happen and what to expect - and that's why those two things are so scary to me.
Although I must admit that when I was living in UK I was less scared of anything than I'm here in Finland. Interesting, isn't it? After all the odds that something happends in UK is way bigger than in here!
And ever since my father died, my fear of death diminished a little. I'm still scared of it, though. But not as much. The same happened to my mum - she said that now that the worst thing has already happened, she can relax more.
Fears are weird things, aren't they? So many of them cannot be explained with reason. That's why they fascinate me... 
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Re: Biggest fear
« Reply #1 on: Apr 28th, 2005, 9:02am » |
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I have lots of "little" fears. My greatest fear is losing my husband or one of my children. It terrifies me. Sometimes, just thinking about it can start a full blown panic attack.
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Re: Biggest fear
« Reply #2 on: Apr 28th, 2005, 9:03am » |
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Biggest fear would have to be dying alone.
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Re: Biggest fear
« Reply #3 on: Apr 28th, 2005, 10:02am » |
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Quote:| And ever since my father died, my fear of death diminished a little. I'm still scared of it, though. But not as much. The same happened to my mum - she said that now that the worst thing has already happened, she can relax more. |
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Just a comment on this subject of death. My greatest fear was taking care of someone dying and then postmortum care. In 2003 my life seem to stop my Grandpa had been told that his cancer had spread through out his body and he only had 3-4 mo. to live. Then went to 3-4 weeks and I was working so hard to get home to say my goodbyes. I was going home on a Sat. and asked mom on Tues. if she thought he would make it that long. I then up it to Thurs. I had to work on those days and there was a cancer patient and I couldn't go in his room without later busting out in tears. Wed. at 2:30 in the morning my mom calls telling me to wake my husband up and I knew right then he didn't make it. I called into work then called the airlines for a flight out ASAP and the uped the flight and gave a discount. Was hard to enter my Grandparents house and to go to the wake.
Getting to the point I went on to nursing school in August and started to learn about death and dying and what my Grandpa went through and I had to leave the class. It was hard.
Got out on the job as a nurse in the nursing home and got broke in really fast. I have since then made many choices for myself and have learned that some deaths are a blessing.
It will still be different with others close to me pass. I do have some fear of dying but most of it dying at a young age...
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Re: Biggest fear
« Reply #4 on: Apr 28th, 2005, 10:31am » |
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My mothers last two months were spent in a nursing home.. I spent most nights there and if not, I was there every morning before I went to work. Each morning I would bath, dress & feed her breakfast, including week-ends. I would go back each evening after stopping by home to feed her dinner.
I saw many people that had no visitor, seem to be neglected a lot of the time, because the home was over filled and understaffed..
I didn't do anything until after my mother passed for fear the staff would take it out on her when I wasn't there. After she passed I had the station do a story on it and things have improved a lot... And my youth group have adopted some of the people that don't have family to visit as their grandparents.
So I guess my worse fear would be living out my last few months, years or what have you in a nursing home and being neglected; sitting around wet, not being fed and just plain ole being ignored.
I Pray that I go quick and not suffer.
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Re: Biggest fear
« Reply #5 on: Apr 28th, 2005, 11:01am » |
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Losing a child. Scares the hell out of me. I just cannot fathom the pain that a parent goes throw when they have to bury a child. No parent should ever have to do that.
I have an aunt that is 94 years old. A couple of years ago her oldest son died (of old age, not illness) at age 74. Letting her son go was, I know, the hardest thing she had ever done in her life. She grieved like she was burying a young child.
I never, ever want to have to do that.
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Re: Biggest fear
« Reply #6 on: Apr 28th, 2005, 11:32am » |
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My biggest fear is losing Crystal...
Other fears is a long and painful death, not death, just that it isn't long and painful, like I see my sister going through.
The ocean...I can take walks on the beach, but you won't get me in the water. And if the waves are high, I won't be walking on the beach either. I saw Perfect Storm a few months ago, and I almost had a panic attack  I love to swim though...go figure.
Also...Rats...they're disgusting, repulsive creatures...I even hate the white ones...I don't care...I've seen huge sewer rats too growing up in the City...just thinking about them makes me nauseaous...
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Re: Biggest fear
« Reply #7 on: Apr 28th, 2005, 2:17pm » |
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