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nancyc
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To my Ex who died 3 months ago...Realization....
« on: Dec 11th, 2004, 3:56am » |
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You planted seeds...I cried as the soil is not fertile....you spit on it....I prayed for rain....I looked for light....it was gone. While watching the land, I realized, I could no longer grow in this enviornment either....and I had flesh and blood...not just stems and stalks. You misunderstood the beginning so how could there be a middle or end with YOU? How could you visualize beauty in life? In order to survive, I had to leave....you knew nothing about my world, how i grew up, what i desired, what was important to me and humanity.
I looked at the fields you had already planted, they were filled with weeds....I struggled to get to them to give them air...and food...But, they had been smothererd.I wept....I begged for air for them, YOU said NO, let's do it my way....I watched all afternnon as the sweltering sun fried the beautiful plants.....untill there was noting left to mourn over.I then, valantly searched for Light, and realized it was far away....I had to to in order to survive.....SO, I ran from you...so far to where the trees are green, the plants are flourishing...a place of contentment..not one of control that stifles growth in it's self and everyone around it......Beautiful Life....what a fantastic site..WHAT HAPPENED TO MY LIFE AND THOSE AROUND ME??? I knew then I had to fight just in order to live in peace...so sad But, I knew for once in a long time, this plant would grow....For this I am grateful.....smiles,nancyc
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Re: To my Ex who died 3 months ago...Realization..
« Reply #1 on: Dec 11th, 2004, 10:11am » |
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Nice post Nancy; very insightfull.
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Re: To my Ex who died 3 months ago...Realization..
« Reply #2 on: Dec 13th, 2004, 10:24am » |
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Blessings and best wishes for growth, peace, and prosperity in all of its myriad forms, Nancy. 
May your branches soar to the heavens so that angels recline in your shade.
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Re: To my Ex who died 3 months ago...Realization..
« Reply #3 on: Dec 13th, 2004, 11:02am » |
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hugs to you Nancy...
now bloom again and THRIVE!!!
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Re: To my Ex who died 3 months ago...Realization..
« Reply #4 on: Dec 13th, 2004, 11:40am » |
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Nice post Nancy
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Re: To my Ex who died 3 months ago...Realization..
« Reply #5 on: Dec 13th, 2004, 12:03pm » |
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Nancy--I am speachless.
Glad to read you have seen the light.
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Re: To my Ex who died 3 months ago...Realization..
« Reply #6 on: Dec 13th, 2004, 12:31pm » |
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You guys are too much....thanks for the nice words but I was drunk out of my mind when I posted this...I wrote it as I posted..LOL....I had not had anything to drink in several months due to all my medications...but I am in so much pain, that the other nite, I drank 6 glasses of wine....It went to my head bigtime...one of the first times I have not hurt in three weeks with this back problem....So, you dont have to be nice about this post...I was out of it when i posted it...sorry for wasting DJ's mb to put this up.....
smiles,nancyc 
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Re: To my Ex who died 3 months ago...Realization..
« Reply #7 on: Dec 14th, 2004, 8:47am » |
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Welcome back OFF the wagon?
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nancyc
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Re: To my Ex who died 3 months ago...Realization..
« Reply #8 on: Dec 14th, 2004, 3:09pm » |
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Damn, I cant even have a glass of wine now to try to dull this pain....I am sceduled to go back to the hospital in the morning for an injection in my hip joint...say a prayer please..I am in so much pain, I could die....this is unreal...smiles,nancyc PS i was never on a wagon...dont need to be....alcohol is not a must in my life ....i may have a drink every few months anymore. Life is easier without it when you have chronic chs...
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