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Elaine
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I know I been getting hit fairly bad lately !
I been trying to keep up with who is in cycle!
I know one thing tonight, i am feeling pertty lost !
I am seeing a lot of the floor these days, and sheading a tear or two at night now. I hate these Fuckers I hate them. I don't know where to go any more.
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« Reply #1 on: Jun 12th, 2003, 8:39pm » |
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ELAINE........deary you've come to the right place.
You know your family here would do anything for you......sorry it's so bad dear lady.....and praying for quick relief for you.
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #2 on: Jun 12th, 2003, 8:39pm » |
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 You're in my thoughts Elaine. I feel your desperation! I HATE THEM TOO!!
As far as me...still chronic...they've been pretty mild since a couple days before Mother's Day. Thank God! They're about 9 hrs apart and I'll take it if that's the best I can get.
I hope they end for you soon! That damn BASTARD!
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #3 on: Jun 12th, 2003, 8:42pm » |
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I hear ya Elaine, I have a major problem with this fucking beast!!!! Wish he would go away forever for all of us!
I'm thinking of you and sending you all kinds of positive pain free vibes!! Anything you need just ask!
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #4 on: Jun 12th, 2003, 9:31pm » |
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Elaine Im really sorry to hear you are having a damn tough time lately. I am around cluster peak right now, and also having a hard time. BUT I know things will get better! We just gotta take it one hit at a time, one day at a time. Know that this WILL end. Hang in there and think positive thaughts of what you will do when you are finaly PF. Thinking of you and wishing you PFDAN !!
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #5 on: Jun 12th, 2003, 10:20pm » |
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Elaine,
Sorry you getting hit right now and having a rough time.  I'll be praying for the beast to leave you alone! Hang in there.
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #6 on: Jun 12th, 2003, 10:26pm » |
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You came to the right place E......this is where you need to be when you're hurting. Wish I could take some of the hits for you.....I'd do it in a heartbeat.
Don't feel lost....there are many of us walking with you!
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #7 on: Jun 12th, 2003, 10:29pm » |
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E,
I've been "IN CYCLE " for the last 11 yrs. At the beginning and at the end of every fucking HA I think of all of you guys out there. In the middle of one however, I'm too busy screaming and writhing in pain to think of anything. When I think of all of you though, it's like one huge group of people in the back of my mind, cheering me on and hating this beast as much as me.
Don't feel alone hon. Please. Linda
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #9 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 1:48am » |
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You know who your friends are Elaine.
Just lean on one of us or all.
We are here for you as you have been for us.
A lot of positive wibes on the way to you my friend
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #10 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 3:18am » |
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We've all been there: either we had the cluster or we had to stand by and see somebody we cared for suffer, like now, with you.
You are anything but alone, so keep up that head of yours, hang in there; what would we do without you, girl!
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #11 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 8:03am » |
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Sorry you're being hit E. Seems like we are doing the dance together these days. I just wish the beast would quit leading.
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« Reply #12 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 8:09am » |
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Hang in there E,
Sending you 5 more pf hours to use whenever you need them!
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« Reply #13 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 8:12am » |
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Sending waves of support. I and everyone else here know how horrible you're feeling. You are never alone.
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #14 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 8:19am » |
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Elaine sorry that you are getting hit so hard.I only wish i can take those fucken CH off your hands for a few weeks so you can be PF.And mean it
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #15 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 8:30am » |
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I don't know that I've had a fucking cluster, but I did once get hit while administering cunnilingus. 
Sorry. Hope you feel better soon. I'm not in cycle, but I would take a couple of your headaces, if it was possible. Not just out of human compassion, but also out of respect for the might contributions you have made to help so many CH sufferers. I'm pretty new here, but one doesn't have to pay too close attention to see how much you mean to everyone.
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #16 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 8:40am » |
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Hey TS....
nope - I've never had one. But I get one in my heart when I hear you're hurting like this.
So, feel me there with you, sending you strength to fight. Kick it's ass, darlin - like we all know you can.
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #17 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 11:15am » |
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I am just pissed off cause I been feeling so good now for so long, and the damn things are back. I don't even know if they are back for good as a chronic or back just for a couple of months. I thought for sure I would get a couple of years off. I will get use to it all again. I would reather be a chronic than a eposodic. I always said ya'll had it worst, now I know you do. To be pain free for months and even years then get hit its harder than getting hit everyday, at least thats what I think after having it both ways. I will be ok ! I am just sitting on my pity pot, I will flush soon  !
I know you guys are here. Maybe the sun will come out soon and all us that is getting hit will be PF ! We will give all the supporters a rest.
I would love to come to this board one day and find no anger, no pain, no cluster post , no bad news post. It would be nice to wake up no one in any type of pain and this board full of "Praise God", and lots of laughter, hugs, and lots of good news. I pray for this everyday I turn on the news LOL!
Come to think of it this board is like the news LOL! Think about it. We have hate crimes, gossipe, laughter, deaths, music, health, vacations, we even get weather reports here. LOL! Best damn news on the web is right here. !!!!!
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #18 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 11:21am » |
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Lady E, I do not know how on earth being episodic could ever be worse than being chronic! I have never been chronic so I guess I can't compare, but I know my HA will end, and I know my cycle will end, and in the between times it's all a distant memory.
Of course when they come back it comes with force, and you have to go through the "will it ever end" thing again. I just can't imagine having that awful pain everyday of my life. I truly do not think I could ever survive being chronic. I live in terror of that!
You are one very strong lady
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #19 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 11:34am » |
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on Jun 13th, 2003, 11:15am, Elaine wrote:| I would reather be a chronic than a eposodic. I always said ya'll had it worst, now I know you do. To be pain free for months and even years then get hit its harder than getting hit everyday, at least thats what I think after having it both ways. I |
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I'm so glad you said this Elaine. I've tried to explain this to some people on the phone, and they just tell me I'm crazy. I only had a week PF (the PF time was do to shroom treatment), but when they came back........my heart just broke for all the episodics out there. I finally had an idea of what they went through, and it is a hellacious, horrible feeling. It sounds somewhat crazy to say you'd take being chronic, but in some twisted, bizarre way......chronic seems a little better than forgeting what they feel like, and then being slammed upside the head and reminded.
I KNOW most of the other chronics won't agree with me......this is just my take on it. I think we, as chronics, do build up a tolerance to it, and we learn to live day in and day out with them, to function as normally as we can around the ch's.
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Tracey
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
« Reply #20 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 11:42am » |
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So sorry to hear you are getting hit, Lady E. My best to you and my strongest prayers and hopes for the pain to stop for you. - Jim R
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« Reply #21 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 11:51am » |
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I guess its the fact when I get hit there will be months that its not a 10 each time. Its just enough to let me know he still has me in his power he is still there. Then the pain will increse for a moth or two, every attack will be a 10. Then it slows down kind of like he is getting tired, then when you think you have beat him he comes back for more. We have breaks or at least I did, but it was never total pain free breaks. I tell you what I sure as hell enjoyed being pain free these last few months. It was fun
Its kind of like you never tasted ice crean and someone says here have a lick...hmmm it was so good you just wanted more. Then you find you can't have any more.
Oh well so is life right!
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Re: Any one have a Fucking cluster?
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on Jun 12th, 2003, 8:36pm, Elaine wrote:I know I been getting hit fairly bad lately !
I been trying to keep up with who is in cycle!
I know one thing tonight, i am feeling pertty lost !
I am seeing a lot of the floor these days, and sheading a tear or two at night now. I hate these Fuckers I hate them. I don't know where to go any more. |
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Elaine, there is no day in wich I don’t think of you, you know that you are an exemple for us all.
Every night I pray God to give you the force to overcome also these moments of sadness...
I love you Milady.
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on Jun 13th, 2003, 11:34am, Roxy wrote:
I KNOW most of the other chronics won't agree with me......this is just my take on it. I think we, as chronics, do build up a tolerance to it, and we learn to live day in and day out with them, to function as normally as we can around the ch's. |
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Agreed!
Hang in there, E!!
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« Reply #24 on: Jun 13th, 2003, 4:08pm » |
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Hang in there Elaine! I'm not a chronic but I am getting hit right now too. PF thoughts your way!!! -- Bryan
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