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eyes_afire
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Hell is here. 
I guess I should be glad for the past couple of months. Although I've been getting shadows daily, my last actual CH was in October. Until this weekend. I'm afraid they're back. 2 nights in a row waking up at 4:40am, pulling myself out of horrible nightmares and into horrible reality of CH... wimpering at the O2 tank and trying to make deals with every deity imaginable. I hate this shit. Historically, February and March are my worst months so I knew I was living on borrowed time.
I'm sorry folks, I just had to vent. I can't think straight right now and its taking me forfuckingever to write this.
Damn
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Re: Damn
« Reply #1 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 3:42pm » |
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I am so so sooooooo sorry your goin thru this eyes......I'm wishing you PF days ahead........got fingers,toes,feet,eyes,hair and tatts crossed for ya..........Pam-Coots-notta-practicein-contorsionist
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Re: Damn
« Reply #2 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 3:58pm » |
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Eyes, I'm so sorry this has hit. Wish there was something I could do to make it better. Maybe since it waited late to hit, it will be a short trip for you.
Thinking about you and wishing you PFDAN,
Tracey
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You know what you have to do, Bro
Build an arsenal of what ever works for you, stand your ground and beat this MF'er back to hell.
You got all of us as supporting troops so you know your not alone in this.
Good luck, dude.
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Re: Damn
« Reply #4 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 5:03pm » |
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Hi eyes_afire..sorry the beast has returned keep strong, keep fighting and know we are all here for you...sending you my very best vibes...
Cathy
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Re: Damn
« Reply #5 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 5:35pm » |
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Sorry to hear that Eyes. Hang tough (stay hard  ) and vent all you want, that's what we're here for. You just gotta beat this like you always do.
Hopin' it'll be a short one and you get back to reality soon.
pfdan's to you
Jim
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Re: Damn
« Reply #6 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 5:51pm » |
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Eyes,
Sorry the beast found your address again. Hang in there, we all know you can beat him at his own game.
Take care,
suzy
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Re: Damn
« Reply #7 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 6:06pm » |
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damn it eye's this aint' what i want to hear!, hang tough 'bro, i got hit 3 night's straight last week,thought it was the start, WRONG! been 4-day's & i'm ok,good luck to ya! ..........Jack
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Re: Damn
« Reply #8 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 6:10pm » |
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Sorry it's back. Hope it ends soon! Fight it all the way!
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Blessings and PFDAN,
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Re: Damn
« Reply #9 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 6:24pm » |
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Man Eyes, sorry to hear it's back for you. Hey, look on the bright side, we're already almost 1/3 the way through March. Seriously, I hope that 2003 is a better year for you than 2002 was for me with the Beast. Take care & stay strong.
Later
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Re: Damn
« Reply #10 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 7:50pm » |
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Im sorry, Eyes...
Time to kick ass.....!!
Tina 
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Re: Damn
« Reply #12 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 10:18pm » |
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Rats.
Damn sorry. Gotta try my system. Ya got nothing to lose.
Dr. Wright's Circulatory Technique
This is not transcendental meditation, imagery, relaxation, or anything psychic. It's entirely physical and takes a lot of work and concentration. Give this method a good workout. It’s not a miracle, but it’s been helpful to many.
When I was diagnosed, my neurologist said to treat this as a vascular problem. I was told to concentrate on “redirecting” blood circulation in order to retard flow to the head. This is done by trying to “send” blood into the arms and hands or other extremities. When properly done, your hands will become warm and redder with increased circulation. I also found it easier to concentrate on one hand.
This relieves just slightly, the pressure on the affected vessel, which indirectly causes our pain. We all have this ability but it can be exhausting. I was often able shorten my attacks from about half an hour to no more than a few minutes. Sometimes, when awake, I could entirely abort the attack IF I KEPT AT IT. Often, I would suffer only minor discomfort instead of excruciating pain. Do not stop just because your hands are warm or redder. Keep this up until you are sure it's subsided. If you let up or lose concentration, it’s very hard to restart this process. It may take some time but when this works, the relief is almost immediate.
I learned this from the doctor in a few minutes. He simply told me to try to keep blood away from the head. He thought it easiest to concentrate on the arms and hands but any place that works for you is fine. He said to think of it as "filling your hands" with redirected blood. It’s important to keep at it THROUGH the pain. This will be difficult, but it’s the only way this technique will work. Don’t let up until you are sure the attack has ended.
This will not always work, but I think it will always have at least some effect on the severity and duration of the attacks. It can be useful between medications or while waiting for some other drug to take effect. All it takes is a little practice. It was fairly easy to learn and what I'm writing here is more than I got from the doctor, as I've drawn from my own experience.
When awakened in horrible pain, it’s very hard to focus, but I think it’s always worth a try. This costs nothing but hard work, is harmless, non-invasive, and it gives us a fighting chance.
I wish you the best of luck - Charlie Strand
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Re: Damn
« Reply #13 on: Mar 9th, 2003, 10:33pm » |
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I am sorry it's "hammer time" for ya eyes.....hang in there and fight the good fight....hopefully this is going to be a short one. Good luck!
PFDAN's,
Mark
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Re: Damn
« Reply #14 on: Mar 10th, 2003, 2:04am » |
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Hey , i thought i was coming down from an episode and have been free for 2 weeks now and BANG tonight get awakened and i have one right now. I have been in an episode since the 2nd week of Jan.
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Re: Damn
« Reply #15 on: Mar 10th, 2003, 2:04am » |
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Damn'd Beast ... Oh Eyes, SIGH .
Sorry your having such a bad time , stay strong you are not alone.
I think of you   ,
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Re: Damn
« Reply #16 on: Mar 10th, 2003, 9:17am » |
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Kick his ass Eyes!! We're all behind you cheering you on!
special hugs just for you!
Ann
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Re: Damn
« Reply #17 on: Mar 10th, 2003, 9:21am » |
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Sorry to read that the SOB found you once again. Stand your ground. Kick his ass!
Hope this is a short one for you this time around.
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Re: Damn
« Reply #18 on: Mar 10th, 2003, 10:11am » |
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KILL THE BEAST.. KILL THE BEAST .. KILL THE BEAST
What movie is that from??? Or is it a song? I know it's somthing... help me out.... is it a pink floyd song? UGH..cant remember.
Anyhow.. been a couple of days.... how are you Eyes?
Tina
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Re: Damn
« Reply #19 on: Mar 10th, 2003, 5:42pm » |
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Damn is right.... sorry man, hang in there.
Pray that the spring cycle is a short one. I'm due any time now too actually. So we can battle together.
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Re: Damn
« Reply #20 on: Mar 10th, 2003, 5:57pm » |
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Damn Eyes!
Hang in there bro and kick it's ass! Like Jonny says..load up on what works and do battle!
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Re: Damn
« Reply #21 on: Mar 10th, 2003, 6:35pm » |
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Thanks everyone for your support. Sorry for venting, I always find that going back into cycle is devastating. Time to pick myself up and soldier on. I hope I get rid of this. Whatever I did yesterday afternoon...
... maybe helped me avoid this morning's CH, because it didn't come this morning. I hope so. I hope it's not just another dirty beast trick to play with my mind. I have mixed feelings of hope and despair.
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Re: Damn
« Reply #22 on: Mar 10th, 2003, 10:59pm » |
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Whatever you did do it again. Maybe the collective power of all the wishes here helped. . Adding mine for no pain hope you kick the beast back to hell where he belongs.
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