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ZAIRA
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I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 1:36pm » |
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I am sad because there is NO tempest whithout distrucion 
I am sad beacuse I think of all CH sufferes... 
I am sad beacuse when you think to be better it is time to be sick... 
I am sad beacuse my eye can not see anymore and my pains go on... 
I am sad beacuse Doctors say that all will be good and each time they visit me it is going worse...
I am sad beacuse my soul is not quite, reacts, but pain comes soon and wins...
I am sad beacuse I do not find peace...
If I could cry all my desperation you could hear me!!
I am happy for 2 things  : to have met you all, and that the beast is leaving...
Sorry...sorry , I do not want you think I am pathetic but I am tired of what is happening.
Thank you for yr. understanding,
Love, Zaira 
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #1 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 1:42pm » |
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Nahhhh, Zaira. You don't seem pathetic. You're battle weary. Glad to hear the beast is leaving.
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #2 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 1:59pm » |
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Of course we don't think that, Zaira, we are clusterheads just like you. We all speak the same language here........pain, help and hope.
Wishing you a better tomorrow...
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #3 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 4:09pm » |
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O Zaira, you are tired and battle-weary. IT WILL PASS!
Be strong, enjoy PF moments and focus on the end of your cycle. Try to be NOT-sad cos we don't like to think of you that way. There's a couple of Kiwis thinking of you, and wishing you PFDAN quickly.
Hang in there babe!
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #4 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 4:12pm » |
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Zaria, hang in there. It will be over soon. You said the beast is leaving .... just give him time to shut the door on his way out. Then LOCK IT as fast as you can !!!
PFDAN's to ya.
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #5 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 4:58pm » |
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Zaira - battle weary is a good description. I am sure you have the strength to overcome this and triumph.
Hang tough
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #6 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 5:55pm » |
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Hi Zaira. You are not alone with your feelings. It sounds like you've had a rough time. I'm hoping that you will have many pain-free days in your future  .
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #7 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 6:14pm » |
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Zaira, You are not the pathetic one. Its the beast who is the pathetic coward. Why else would he hide in our heads and never allow us to touch him like he does us. pfdan to you soon.
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #8 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 9:21pm » |
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It may seem presumptious to say this, but here goes. Your feelings I surely can relate to. And knowing that - I can say this: when it's over your smile will be that much brighter. You will overcome it. When it hurts, do what you have to, but keep in the back of your mind that you are the ultimate victor - and that is sweet success.
Hang tight and well wishes.
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #9 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 9:37pm » |
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I wish you peace and solace-you do sound very tired and battle weary. I acn send you good thoughts and prayers-hang in there!
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« Reply #10 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 9:55pm » |
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Zaira- See how many people there are who wish you PF? They are your energy, your strength when you are so worn out from this beast.
Take care of you right now, and know that the beast is gonna move on soon.
Im so sorry you hurt.
I'm so glad you have this group to help you get through this.
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #11 on: Dec 2nd, 2002, 10:36pm » |
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Zaira,
I am sad to and understand your pain all too well.
Grab onto those here, you will make it, pain free days are to come. And then the clouds will part and you will see the stars again...then maybe you can remind some of us what they look like.
I am trying to help, not much good huh? Sorry, you are in my thoughts and prayers and I hope that you are pain free very very soon..
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #12 on: Dec 3rd, 2002, 12:06am » |
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Nope. You don't sound pathetic. Pathetics don't come to places like this and administer the kind of self-help you are doing and the kindness you have shown.
You're doing okay and that your pain is leaving makes us all feel better
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #13 on: Dec 3rd, 2002, 12:58am » |
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Pathetic?!? My "conigliona" cannot be pathetic!
Misfortune, may be, bad times.... but never pathetic!
Zaira you are strong, and you'll win; may be in the future near or less near to us, but YOU'LL WIN!
(for the record... CONIGLIONA means "big nice bunny" in Italian, and was born because she live in CONEGLIANO, a beautiful city in the North East of Italy. Just the sound similarity........  ;D ;D ;D ;D)
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« Reply #14 on: Dec 3rd, 2002, 1:16am » |
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Zaire..I pray now for strength for you through the rest of this and rest for the battle weary soul. It will be over soon. Blessings to you..
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Blessings and PFDAN,
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #15 on: Dec 3rd, 2002, 4:27am » |
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Zaira:
Italian girls are beautiful when they smile...
So can we see some of these from you ;D ;D?
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #16 on: Dec 3rd, 2002, 1:43pm » |
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To endure the agonising unreleting chronic agony that you do is simply superhuman Zairra. I Pray for news of your healing.
***Forgive my English, Riccardo will translate if you need***
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #17 on: Dec 3rd, 2002, 2:28pm » |
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Thanks my friends, it is wonderful that you encourage me even if we do not know each other, it is wonderful...
This is the only place where I can express my self, and where I feel at home.
I whant to tell you that I feel you close to me, like guardin angels!
Now I am walking through darkness, but I have to fight until I find the light of the sun.
Life is mistery, there are nice and bad days we must fight and use the best part of us to go on...in all cases!
Thanks with all my heart to have read my message, hoping that you all are good.
I leave you now because my eyes need rest.
All my best wishes to you all.
Zaira
P.S. A special thanks to my TRONCO DI PINO=PINE TRUNK (Riccardo ) who supports me all the time. Ciao, yr. CONIGLIONA!
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #18 on: Dec 3rd, 2002, 3:00pm » |
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I have understood what you mean...thanks a lot...
Zaira
on Dec 3rd, 2002, 1:43pm, dannyboy wrote:To endure the agonising unreleting chronic agony that you do is simply superhuman Zairra. I Pray for news of your healing.
***Forgive my English, Riccardo will translate if you need***
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« Reply #19 on: Dec 3rd, 2002, 3:42pm » |
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Zaira, you are far from pathetic. Battle weary is indeed a very good description.
As bizarre as it is, the pain of the beast has left you the ability to give the rest of us something tangible. Your art is incredible, and although I know it would still be if you hadn't experienced this hell, the rest of us would not have your explicit artwork to say "yes that's it exactly, that's how it feels". Your drawings give us that tangible thing we all want to put to the beast.
Soon PF days will be yours, and you deserve them. Enjoy all your PF time and feel no remorse. You will win this battle and every other one there is to fight. I know this because you are part of this family, and in this family, we make sure each is taken care of and gets what they need. (Even when it's a kick in the pants LOL).
Best wishes and vibes for good days coming your way.
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #20 on: Dec 4th, 2002, 7:08am » |
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Dear Cat,
I’m moved from yr. message, you are too good towards me, because i think that everyopne who feels bad, can transmit sentiments and feelings as I do.
Thenk you for yr. consideration, I’m translating some “poetries” in to english….I await yr. Comments,
many kisses,
Zaira
on Dec 3rd, 2002, 3:42pm, catlind wrote:Zaira, you are far from pathetic. Battle weary is indeed a very good description.
As bizarre as it is, the pain of the beast has left you the ability to give the rest of us something tangible. Your art is incredible, and although I know it would still be if you hadn't experienced this hell, the rest of us would not have your explicit artwork to say "yes that's it exactly, that's how it feels". Your drawings give us that tangible thing we all want to put to the beast.
Soon PF days will be yours, and you deserve them. Enjoy all your PF time and feel no remorse. You will win this battle and every other one there is to fight. I know this because you are part of this family, and in this family, we make sure each is taken care of and gets what they need. (Even when it's a kick in the pants LOL).
Best wishes and vibes for good days coming your way.
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #21 on: Dec 6th, 2002, 11:47am » |
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Zaira....I'm sorry you are sad, however, you are FAR from pathetic.
I'm also glad you have found a place here and I'm sure we will all agree that you are most welcome.
Riccardo has been posting your artwork on occasion and ,I, for one am greatly appreciative of your talent and find myself eagerly looking forward to the next. you should compile them all in chronological order and try to get them published.
Hang in there sweetie
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Re: I am ZAIRA and I am SAD!
« Reply #22 on: Dec 6th, 2002, 12:28pm » |
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Thank you Cerebus, (you have a very nice name)!
In these days I am working on another artwork I will
Tell to Riccardo to post it.
I have an album where I file them based on the date
Of their creation.
See you, Zaira
on Dec 6th, 2002, 11:47am, cerebus wrote:Zaira....I'm sorry you are sad, however, you are FAR from pathetic.
I'm also glad you have found a place here and I'm sure we will all agree that you are most welcome.
Riccardo has been posting your artwork on occasion and ,I, for one am greatly appreciative of your talent and find myself eagerly looking forward to the next. you should compile them all in chronological order and try to get them published.
Hang in there sweetie
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